a determined mind.
under God's shine after broke heart for a girl collegian,devote reclaim my vested kingdom China from my ancestor with glory
My spring festival with my son. ^ in dawn dream I see clear in PRC's early history, each inside cleansing during its climb to state power in fact a brutal extinguishing of merited people. Then dreamed with my senior middle school alumni. My son's mom still in biter revenge and self-destructive, lingering in her mother's home during the lunar holiday, willing retreat from mother's role her own. I told my son his mom is a mistake, step by step losing in vain, while her mother is the undercurrent deep sin in the family cursed. The ugly old woman tentatively weakened her 2 daughters to make herself indispensably before her death. She made her home house of lesbians and brothel. She really disgusts me, and any clean mind. In 2 days I hold my son in my dorm to avoid the sin. God, protect my son's little world before scattered till his maturity. Keep shape of a supporting life around my son.Dad, bring sooner my son his mother in Japan, my crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. Bring my Royal China sooner into my life so far praying for the change predicted. Thx for the rich spring festival of 2014.
dreamed of being among civil war.^ Dreamed first being army of CCP in civil war in 1940's. We then likely captured by CDP army of General Chiang Kai Chek. For both sides being young, we got familiar and in a mission together. We talked while marched on a hill to sent weapons or messages. it raining and slippery, and human habitat covered with shits, that let me anxious. We 2 young ladies and 2 boys. Sometimes we encountered ambush but not terrifying like war movies. 2 days will be my first real credit card payment deadline. God, that anxious me for almost 2 months. I look forward clear settlement on time. In the past week I also asked my kid brother bought me a set of download robot. My old notebook sent to repair, so I had to be idle all day long. Thx for the leisure, dad, pl in coming days allow me work loads happily and freshly. This lunar spring festival means nothing but changes.
lunar year end celebration prepared. ^ month long anxious upon lunar spring festival celebration eased, with an exceptional big loan of ￥4000 from my senior middle school alumnus, including 2100 RMB purchased an acer chromebook to replace old notebook whose independent video card, a Nvidia product, totally broke down. God, I see ur grace after these days enduring praying. promise filled without doubt, but out of plenty. In dawn I dreamed in my hometown, a long time admirer and chaser of my old family, esp. my passed dad, built an iron bull sculpture, stands in front of the village or the back hill, source of most business of villagers. my sinful 2nd brother among them to build the statue. then on a bus whose amazing driver drove along dangerously road. the road so steep that sometimes the bus totally vertical stood, or swinging to hell. later after the bus fell onto a deep slope, we found it in fact raised by electromagnetism operated by the driver aside a power lever. my 2nd brother and one of my cousin visited me in the dream but I didn't buy their phony hospitality. my university alumnus, who since graduation works in Shenzhen, southern China, appeared in the end of the dream, likely invited me to continue competition between us, say, home library, but I told him I gave up. its a mild sunny morning when I went for breakfast. God, so many witness here upon the crisis just through. God, put me deeper in ur gratitude and complacent. bring me sooner my Royal China, esp. Asoh Yukiko and my TW girl, to allow me home my children. thx God dad.
dreamed in class with my son and once colleagues. ^ my son now almost appears in my every dream. dreamed in a class among my QRRS colleagues as students and the dark souled director co-hosting the classroom. I with my son chose back seats to prepare for event changes. yesterday is happy Sunday when I played games with my son all day long in a week. I also bought myself underpants long time intended. when I handed over ￥20 to son to let him buy him a soap box, he carefully chose and left ￥15. apparently he saves from the purchase and deserves a reward, but I insisted buying cookies with the leftover. my son reluctant to buy the food and I didn't noticed his concern. after returned to dorm, I got insight my son in need of managing finance experience. he want to earn and constantly improve his financial life. God, I always warned my son anything he want, he should empowered to protect his new property. I always warned him danger in teenager with abundant pocket money against school bullying. God, my son wants financial practices. God, grant him meaningful lessons on well-being. God, dad, in the past week I experienced so many joyed glory the Son entitled. bring me sooner my Royal China to honor his land and people. thx God, in this cordial sunny morning.
Dream of infection.^ in dawn dream, I was a middle aged Cantonese businessman or doctor, likely with my son, with whom I deep concerned and recently frequently appeared in my dreams, cooperated with CCP before PRC's birth. in dark woods we had to climbed and move along reef to escape enemies. then my palm cut and infected by a bug. when I kill it and removed it, its head bolt in the wound and spore a tiny worm with many legs and quick moving into my flesh. the terrifying scenario is my nightmare. the in a rush to catch a train, likely with my son. when we aboard, I hurry to search rooms for water or sort my inventory. the destiny of the rain uncertain. we had some travelers but strange. after got up, its late to breakfast in canteen but I still went for it and ate it. God, such wonderful days recently, touch me with pure emotions. dad, God, bring me sooner my Asoh Yukiko, my girl LYu, girl TW, girl Zhou, bring me a harmonious family. thx, God.